Good Karma

I am here

Pretty near

To seize my thoughts.

As I sit here

Well enough to bear

But to some, it’s just a mere.

When I say who is there

My love replies me goodbye.

I love too much of everything

So much, that it’s hard to differ between things

Is it really too much to bear??

I ask because I care

Even-though,

I stiff up and act I don’t.

Have been changing myself for nineteen years.

Do tell me when to stop my fears.

If ever I was not wise anywhere, anytime

Sorry, It wasn’t me but “our” ugly side

I remember when we used to cry

But don’t remember why?

Was it because, when you said hey

And I replied “get out of my way.”

My sorry is well over five.

Now I have nobody to hang by.

Now when I look back

I miss everything I lacked.

Now I want to live the present

For the future

From what I got from the past

As I aint no priest

But a small step to make up for my sin.

Pong Life

Hey im back again

With some more to get straight

That I am not afraid

To jump up in the air

I don’t care if it aint fair

Down the cliff, don’t get scared

Chill, it’s not a suicide note

Now take a pill.

Love my life as much as ping pong

See life as nothing else but ping pong

Yeah ping pong

Where you never back down

You’re the paddle

Ball aint nothing but trouble

Coz that’s when you got to be unstoppable

Don’t let it come “after you”

“After you” is for success to come to

So if you think you are much better

Then you’re nothing but a weak faker.

Pain

You think, the sun aint gonna rise again

You think, all i got is the pain

If i get up every time to fall

Then you haven’t seen nothing at all

The only “friends” I got are all corpse

Coz they are far better than living props

Something heard quite often is trust

Which aint nothing but there to rust

There is dusk before every dawn

As evil rests after his midnight frown

And so do I before I play face to face

Coz more the pain, my life is more in pace

Good side, the bad side

Na, only thing see is a huge collide

There aint no morals to live by

You make em, then you deny

It’s all a joke I say

Then they ask “to whom do you pray?”

Yes I am in pain

That gives me the strength to sustain

Yesterday Comes Fast

Yesterday, I was at the other end

No idea what it was like to be where he was

I apologies for everything before life runs out

And I am all my breath out

no nothing now ..how should I take life now

no reason to live long

People say “be good, or you go to hell”

Open your eyes,

This is the life we chose, the life we lead

Only one guarantee

None of us will see heaven.

College

Hi there, back with my thing again

Aint’t got no life, Nothing better to do,

that’s how I am treating this hindu.

Got back from india after a month and a half

Well this time got u nothing to laugh.

It’s all God damn serious, life is no laughing matter

As it doesn’t seem to get any brighter

Miss my old school, 2 months of vacation

3 months take my ass all the way down to frustration

Its fun when u got a job,

Hello!! Need one here too, now its time that I got beyond with all those cotton swabs

No SSN, no $ching-ching$

I wont hate my college as much as I hate my life right now

I’ll manage the exhaustion somehow

Just like high school

Playing sports and being in pool

So that’s my deal so far …..

Will try to keep updating bar-bar.

Real Joker

Being serious is what I love to kill

Even though im down with mofo bills

Aint nothing u achieve just wearing a suit

Ha ha, better you put on with two

Don’t go down with no mofuckin plans

I’m a joker, not a gay ass batman

News, radio I blow things to be on

As I never let you wake up in the dawn

He’s right, I don’t like mofuckin none of that

So lets do some motherfucking combat

So you better go fucking embrace it

Or else ima have to make a slit

I see you got pretty little emotions

I got em too, use it during some action

As I open the portal of hell

There aint be nothing but to yell

Oh baby c’mon lets put a smile on that face

You crazy bitch, for you I got a place

In the heart I never had

Tic-tic-tic-tic the cloak going is all mad

Why you seem all scared baby

Why baby, you think I am crazy??

See I don’t like that shitt

Not one FLCKING bitt

And…….

Why so serious!!

HAHAHAHA!!

Free world

The world is not free

People with all the hindrance

Buzzing in each other’s life like a bee

The life that ain’t got no balance

The world is not free

Not free from violence

With the height of a mountain peak

He’s taking over the world with a distance

The world is not free

Having a family is beautiful

So free from mind, only does what all they agree

O yeah “having a family is beautiful.”

The world is not free

Saddens me down to have these heartbreakers

Still I love the world, the way it is to me

Gandhi said “Hate the Sins, Don’t hate the Sinners.”

Lame Conversation

Today something happened, you might find disturbing

I was on the messenger with my friends babbling

It was 1 pm on my friends side,

He thought, something strange he might find

As I had told him “dude be online….gotta tell u something very important”

I came up and I was like “I wrote a poem better than a diamond pendant”

He was like “what is the important thing u wanted to tell me”

Hesitatingly I said “this poem you user of acne”

Instead of praising me he flipped out on me

He was like “I’ll put ur freakin head in the chimney”

I got sad and started crying

To make it up to me he started egg boiling and frying

Everything soothed out

And I got out from deep harsh blackout

Then his girl comes out from nowhere

Givin me a concussion …I realized I gotta be aware

The man who invented the button “invisible”

I hope his death to be painful and brutal

So back to the conversation with her

What conversation??minute after she’s like “chao...catch as soon as its possible”

Then she said “bye bye”, then I went to have a piece of bagel

I said “cool”. She said “what’s cool in dis”

Looking around being innocent I said “nothing”

I said “i mean ....u'll hv some sleep.”

“Ok…..gud” she said with a sweep.

Then she was like “nycc display pic”

“Of course” I said poking myself with a chopstick

Then after a while she’s like “i dont tink i m going”

This phenomenon of bye and hi again kept on banging

Saying firm “bye” she went by

Not knowing the seriousness I said “bye” too, but aint got no reply.

Junk food

She was an angel, I thought

For who, I could have even fought

She was my sexy baby

I slept all day long and got lazy

When she wasn’t around

Felt like my life had lost its background

First thing I saw her with the dawn

Can t let the bygones be bygones

One day, I started laughing at the mirror with obsession

O wait, what? I was looking at my own reflection

Went on the scale to check my weight

I nod my head with anger and went frustrate

To thyself, took an oath

Never to turn back at her, it was just me and her

There Ain’t no both.

Any How

Any how

About my soul,

Everything i do

Is just about that soul

Any how

About my soul

After you who is gonna take me as a whole

Like you did

Has never done before

I want be back, back all on you

All on you, just tell what you want me to do

Why did you leave me?

Come and retrieve me,

Any how

About my soul

Why you, why me

Why’s he gotta be corny

It liked chocolate

Now im all agitated

Please don’t see me as lover

Disgrace is only what’s gonna hover

Any how

About my soul

U knw what

Lets talk about his soul

The soul I wanna shoot with a pistol

Im mad as fuck

Seem to be all out of luck

Any how

About my soul

Forget it

Don’t care about my rep nomore

Love it

I was chilling back home

Arnav, at the other, doing his hair with a comb

I was cold, sick and bored

Poem, my thing, welcome aboard

My gaze, has been broken

My phase, has been deepened

My dime, I found lying

My time, is just passing by

My chair, is rocking hard

My nightmare, nothing but a junkyard

My case, has been opened

My grace, is being tested ..i say

My knife, only cuts apples..coz

My life, is full of dazzles.

My first one

Started as a baby ….i guess

So far, its been a pretty mess

All my life, tried to be perfect

Thought, would get some f****** respect

Tired, ima cool off now

Judge me!! ima sucker punch you pow-pow

My boys call me kallu….

Why? Got no clue….

Okay I admit...i am kinda black

What!!You gotta problem with that..

U think why I am doing this…..

Thought of doing something

Yeah….kinda shock ….that comin out of my mouth pit

So I ended up writing this shitty poem

Mid years were over….had some boredom

Well, getting out of words….

Guess... I’ll go back , be like other nerds,

I’ll see you guys later,

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